Colossians 3:13

Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

In You I find my Peace, my strength ....

Daily Inventory

Quiet time review of my day confessing my failures and celebrating my victories.

The following are the victories I celebrate today:

We woke up 20 minutes before we needed to leave for VBS. I am so thankful showers were taken care of last night. We got breakfast going and my coffee was done in time for us to go out the door! My husband is the hero who woke us up calling us on his break at work. He admitted to possibly being the one to shut off my alarm on accident. I did not get mad I just went into action and got everyone out the door.

Funny thing we went to bed late last night and I still took a shower saying " If I get woken up early by the lil one I will be screwed and will not be able to take a shower" lol

We got there ready for our High Seas Adventure Captain to open the doors for the kids to come in. Little one and I stayed and enjoyed the music.. ended up being a pretty good morning.

The following are my confessions of failure:

After lunch I dipped into a funk that I just have not been able to get out of. Did not complete a Ongoing Inventory. I just went to sleep as soon as my husband got home from work. We had a late dinner and now I am just ready to do nothing.

This is how I responded or will respond:

I read my bible when I woke up. I read a great passage of scripture in Psalms. I think I will shut the computer off and meditate on it before I go to sleep.

Calling the church tomorrow for Lay Counseling! Talking to someone at CR about step study!!!

Lessons learned .....

Take showers at night time makes for good mornings when woken up late!

Psalm 4:8 I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.

-Did I Read My Bible? yes

-Did I Pray? yes

-Did I Meditate on His word? going to when I am finished here

-Did I write in my Gratitude Journal? yes

-Did I complete a Self Examination? yes

Watch & pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing but the body is weak."

Gratitude for Yesterday & Today

Busy days this week with VBS in full swing at the church. My lil one and I have been staying through the beginning to learn the new songs and stories. She and I have been having so much fun together.

1. I am grateful for my children learning things about God'd word
2. I am grateful for my daughters smile
3. I am grateful for my daughters laugh
4. I am grateful my children are enjoying there high sea's adventure
5. I am grateful for scripture I am reading ( Psalm 4:1-8)

Anger - The Solution

EVALUATE THE ANGER:

Anger is one of my ten basic, God-given emotions. This emotion can be CONSTRUCTIVE or DESTRUCTIVE—depending upon my response. The focus of this group is on giving Jesus a “NANO SECOND” (just one billionth of a second!), to help me use all of my emotions according to God’s design, for my life, and to appropriately change my pattern of relating to my responsibilities and to other people.

It is both healthy and necessary to feel anger and to talk about my anger. I should recognize anger as my own emotion and avoid hurting the objects of my anger— keeping my anger as a feeling not an action. Looking at anger as a feeling may also reveal a larger hurt, habit or hang up that is hiding behind the anger. It is what I do with my feelings that will allow me to fall into sin. I need to check the motives for my behavior. Rudeness under the disguise of being honest is still rudeness.

There are two kinds of anger: healthy adaptive anger and unhealthy needless anger. Healthy anger is based on being protective of myself or others. Unhealthy needless anger is based on my resentment which leads to desiring revenge. Recognizing and accepting my responsibility for unhealthy needless anger is the first step towards true freedom from anger.

DAILY QUIET TIME WITH GOD:

Anger causes me to live in conflict and not in peace. I will try to remember that God is in charge of my life and He loves me unconditionally. I will commit to having a daily quiet time with God.

TAKING A “TIME-OUT”:

When I feel body arousal, I need to recognize that as a sign that I am getting angry. I will use a “time-out” to isolate myself from the trigger for my anger and to prevent the anger from becoming too intense. I will ask myself, “What is making me angry? And “How is this trigger about me?” I will reappraise the situation to keep my behavior under control. I will do something physical to release the adrenaline rush and energy in a healthy way, such as going for a walk or cleaning a closet. I will avoid alcohol, caffeine, or other medicating substances during “time-out.” Looking at anger as a feeling may also reveal a larger hurt, habit or hang up that is hiding behind the anger.

CONFRONTING IN LOVE:

After the time-out, I will go back and deal with what made me angry. If I leave an issue unresolved, it is likely to return later. I will not use the confrontation as an opportunity to blame, shame, seek revenge, or to rationalize my anger. Examples of confronting in love while stating my feelings are: “I love you, here’s how this action makes me feel,” or “I feel devalued when this is said or done.”

WORK THE 12 STEPS AND CONNECT WITH OTHERS:

I will commit to working the 12 Steps, to attend regularly the Celebrate Recovery meetings, and to getting an Accountability Partner for my anger management. (We strongly suggest each woman obtain a Life Recovery Bible and the Participant’s Guides, which are the tools we use in Celebrate Recovery.)

FORGIVE:

I will become willing to forgive myself and others. The Lord forgave you, so you must be willing to forgive others (Colossians 3: 13b NLT). Forgiveness is NOT forgetting what has happened. Forgiveness IS changing the way I think. Forgiveness IS my giving up my desire for revenge.

From the Inside Out

Inventory of Today

Quiet time review of my day confessing my failures and celebrating my victories.

The following are the victories I celebrate today:

Today I wrote out my frustrations instead of getting on the phone with my ex-husband.

I got the kiddos to VBS and took a moment to say hello to a few people instead of rushing through like I was in a hurry.

I spent good quality time with the boys today.

I picked up the phone and called a friend. I was honest about my feelings too.

(Oh I forgot to write last Friday and share that I got to openly speak with my husband and let him know the things I am dealing with. Since them I was able to finish the first chapter of Life's Choices and I am beginning Lesson 1 Denial.)

The following are my confessions of failure:

I spent too much time thinking about the frustrations of my day in my head

I spent too much time worrying about things of the future

I was unable to to pull myself out of my funk I fell into later this afternoon

This is how I responded or will respond:

I wrote about my frustrations in my ongoing journal. I prayed to God to give them to him. I took a nap to try to forget about it. I kept on reminding myself that I am not in control of the situation.

Lessons learned .....

Not arguing and keeping my frustrations under control is very exhausting.

-Did I Read My Bible? yes

-Did I Pray? yes

-Did I Meditate on His word? no

-Did I write in my Gratitude Journal? yes

-Did I complete a Self Examination? yes

Watch & pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing but the body is weak."